The novel conveys with profound honesty the feelings, thoughts, and contradictions that go on inside a woman in love. She believes that the most difficult choice to make is to preserve and perpetuate her intense feelings of love, at the expense of denying her conscious self, aware of the other party's manipulation of her. However, in any case, and even if she pays the price, she will not get what she wants.
You think I'm able to leave everything behind me and move forward.. But I'm still hanging, I'm still leaning on your foggy wall waiting for the stairs of light to descend to me from where I don't expect, stairs that lift me up to where I don't know and pull me out of all this abyss.. This love has overwhelmed me, it has overwhelmed me to the point that I no longer think of anything else. I loved you to the point that you were all my dreams.. I didn't need another dream.. You were the big, the grand, the delicious.. the reassuring dream.. that no dream can match in its sublimity and loftiness.. I resist you fiercely, I resist your abandonment of me violently sometimes and weakly at other times, I resist your desire to leave me because I have no ability to accept you leaving me.. I scream in your face sometimes, and cry in front of you other times and the claws of humiliation devour my depths.. You are crucified in my heart.. A man like you does not die by tradition. A man like you remains on the heads of Witnesses... are not forgotten, do not depart, and do not die like the rest of humanity.